I have made this letter longer, because I have not had the time to make it shorter. Blaise Pascal
Hey,
After a terrible Friday, I had only one thought in my mind. Let me forget her completely for coming few days. She came in my mind, but I wanted her out. I was just upset with her. She had totally avoided me yesterday. No, I wasn’t going to call her today and I wasn’t even planning to think about her. But the more I tried to get away, the more I got into her. Life is a bitch. Mind is a bitch too!
Oh, finally I decide to go to gym. After a fucking week, I crossed gyms door. That awkward moment when the new people think how the fuck another noob lifts heavy weights. I am not a noob you idiots. Just a guy who is pissed off between managing a beautiful friendship and a cool but not so happening job. I walked to gym. I did cardio and then back workout. My personal favourite. And one more reason to do it was the terrible back pain cs was having yesterday. So called profession based disorder. Ah, I forget all the queries when at gym. Life turns back to college like days. college like. Hmm. Again a quick cardio and then steam bath. Fucking soothing feeling. awesome!
Back home at 4, lunch, yutube, gmail, facebook and lot stuff. I was kind of jealous about yesterday’s pic that cs had clicked with few fellows. She is different. Out of the world. now she calls me at 7.30 and we end up talking for 2 hours and fifteen minutes. I fucking never talked to someone that long. I swear! May be I talked with rm for 4 hours, not sure about it. But that was freaking more than 2 hours. Argh! She is a really complex personality. If what she tells is correct, then she has an amazing mind that thinks and responds at the same time. Brilliant. Freaking awesome to have a friend like her. I concluded with saying that I enjoy to talk with her. A smile. It really works. You get what you wish. I am really grateful for the fantastic talk I had today.
She even pointed a flaw in me. I am too much proud of my skills. I behave with others as if they are unskilful. May be because I know their passwords and internal life? Yeah, that makes me confident with a particular person. Aren’t hackers humble. I am. If not, I’ll try to be now. Thank you for telling me. I photoshopped my heart out. But couldn’t create what I wanted. A masterpiece coming tomorrow. In college, ak and ka were my models. Here cs is the one. she likes to be clicked I like to click. Lol.
On some youtube videos, there was this guy who told about a factor effecting happiness. Being in present is important. Not letting your mind wander is what he meant. Be completely focused into the work you are currently doing. Don’t think about something that’s more pleasant, neutral or sad. It won’t end you anywhere near happiness. Let’s hope he is right.
–rd