of memories and worries

Hey,

Wtf I thought I lost most important two and half hours in my life after I got up at 6 and then went to sleep at 7 just to wake up at 9.30. I was feeling as if this is it. It ends today. With just 4 chapters read out of 15 I could see the f mark on my paper. But I did not lose the hope. That’s what I am good at. Hanging on despite any condition. I started again at 10 till 11.30 and from 12 to 12.30. lol 12.30 pm. It takes one and half hour to reach college. And look at my gamble. Yup, I call it gamble and not carelessness. I was reading at a speed more than that of a scanner. lol. Since I was reading from an eBook and it wasn’t possible for me to take laptop with me for the exam, I made text files of answers from pdf and took it in my dumb phone. Though I love my phone but I have to compromise on its old technology. That’s Nokia for you. Believe me it can even survive an apocalypse.

I was 15 minutes late. And so was the question paper. What a lucky bastard I am! Luck was on my side. After checking the paper I thought for a moment what the fuck I read for last two days? Why all these questions don’t look familiar to me? After exam I came to know it wasn’t just me but everyone was going through the same. To boost my confidence, I could solve 2 problem sums of 11 marks. And answers worth 20-30 marks. For the first time in history of my school, high school and college life, I asked for answers of a question from a guy sitting ahead of me. Yeah, I was very honest when it came to final exams till yesterday. But today, I don’t know if it’s cheating if even the paper setter cheats you. Wtf, I admit my mistake. But I don’t feel bad. Some people copy entire paper and tell it with pride. I always wondered how they did it. Today I got a bit of that pie.

To be specific, luck was on my side and I am going to wear same clothes for the next paper too ftw. I returned with a headache but one big headache was gone. I went to gym. Mumbai Indians were playing Bangalore. What a match. Someone should learn the art of finishing from MI. The art of finishing on winning side when everyone thinks you are going to lose! One the other side, Manchester city got the league. They won it in injury time. Can you believe it? 90 and 92^nd minute goals by dzeko and aguero. Doesn’t that smell fishy? Or they really had the will power to win it. Money buys talent and talent brings the trophy. They are fifth team to win. Manu, arsenal, Blackburn, Chelsea and now manc. Blackburn is going down and so is Bolton. Everton is in second half of table. Bad thing is Chelsea has finished out of the top four for the first time since 2002. Thanks to you AVB. Now di matteo says he is ready to leave England. Honestly, I want mourinho back at Chelsea but he wants manu. May be pep guardiola will join us and then mourinho will join manu and the epic batlle between these two will continue? I am good at painting possibilities.

At gym, had a long and nice conversation with my school pal rb. He was my best friend at school. He knows me and I know him. We turned the clock back, unearthed old memories and went back to school days. What is that guy doing? How is our pal who used to this? Oh, is he really a pilot now? These questions and their answers are like time machine. They can take you 10 years back. I just never want to lose my friends ever in life.

–rd

Priority: final exams

Every writer I know has trouble writing. Joseph Heller

Hey,

I wrote the title in me3 style. Tomorrow marks the start to one of the epic event in my life. Possibly the final exam ever in my life, as a regular student. It was a super duper eventful day. I can’t ask for a better Sunday.

I got up with the sound of double ting-tong. The doorbell. Vh came just to watch the new tv show. Amir khan’s satyamev jayate. I thought it would be another entertainment show featuring what Bollywood stars do in their daily life. What they eat, what they do, how they do and stuff like that. The format of the show was unknown and was kept secret. But that turned out to be an awesome show on television. I don’t know if there was ever a show like that which connects to the people in country and takes up the social issues faced by our country. He took a serious social issue of killing the girl foetus. Gender discrimination is one dirty thing that goes on in India. He started off the issue from a common man’s vision and took it up to the entire new level. Also, supported by bizarre experiences and shocking truth to support their findings. I was shocked to see they sell girls in Rajasthan because there aren’t any girls in their villages. There exists a gang of unmarried boys who are single only because there is no girl to marry in their village. I thought he is telling the condition in future, how it will look like if we don’t save the girl child but sadly he announced later that this was present condition in some villages. I have never seen such show. And maybe there will never be one like this. Hats off to Amir for starting such kind of show to fight social issues in country. The YouTube page’s status read, there are many stars but only one hero. I am quite impressed Mr Khan. Well done.

Then I started reading for exam. It was almost evening. Also, today was Buddha pournima. His birth day. Respect to that great person who invented the way to peace thousands of years ago. Desire is the base of sorrows. Hmm. Quite true. But desire brings joy too. May be I am too young to understand the meaning behind that. I want to read his books. I want to understand his thoughts. He is a strange puzzle. How calm his statues look. As if he has mastered the way to win over the whole world’s sorrows. Just looking at his face gives immense feel of peace. It takes me to a different world thinking how he could do it?

Evening was made more awesome by Mumbai Indians game. Man, what a match! How to snatch victories from other team’s hand? Someone should learn this art from the Mumbai Indians. I stopped watching the match when it was150-6 I thought after Sachin fell, match was over just like the 90’s. but still I switched on the tv to watch how we lose. Lol. But then the newcomer came to crease. DR Smith. He got to play last 3 balls. And they all went for boundaries. It was 6-4-4. He was calm, composed and waited for the correct time. And he did it. Bowler was crying in the end. Eat this dhoni. It looked like a magical spell. The match was n roller coaster. At first it looked like it would be csk, then mi, then csk again then mi, the csk. It was sure but last 3 balls changed everything. This is IPL! Glad smith has joined the team at the right moment. Just loved that match.

Then I was again back to the studies. It was very slow but I had fun completing the reading. Today I read not just to pass the exam but to gain the knowledge. I enjoyed it. And I don’t know why I feel sleepy only during exams? Unfair. So tomorrow’s plans. Get up at 6. Complete dw. Till 7.30. Read dm assignments within 2 hours that’s 9.30. Get ready in an hour. And I get one hour to read new parts of dm. revise in the train journey. Start the exam at 1.30. Target score is 80 marks. So attempt 90 marks of paper. Get out at 4.30. Reach home, do gym, take steam bath and after coming home, read pm. That subject scares me. Even this subject will scare me if I don’t finish it off. Lol.

Peace.

–rd

water = life

Hey,

I experienced after a long time what havoc water shortage can create. Damn, due to a pipeline burst, city’s water supply was cut down. Things were not that bad due to water nice water storage system. But it made me remember 127 hours. I hardly drank 2 or 3 litre of water. Had bath with just half filled bucket. Wtf, how worst situation would be there in remote places in India. Why there can’t be equality in world? why poor people can’t even get basic things like water and electricity? Not just poors but many people in cities like Mumbai suffer too.

I woke up at 12.30. I thought of going to gym but my arms were paining a bit and it was too late. I got myself into Sunday’s feast of news-papers. After an hour or so, my uncle and aunt came from pune. It was a surprise but what remains unexpected these days? Fantastic lunch to follow. Fish curry. Then some photoshop learning. Then tv, laptop, tv, laptop …

Torres scored hat trick today. QPR, we have our revenge. It’s funny that the pre-match hand shake was cancelled. Otherwise, this time, Ferdinand would have kicked terry. Lol. Pereira was included in team. Malouda scored a goal. He could be replacement for ramires in ucl finals. Even essien was back. Just one defender less. It was nice to have the real torres back. Now Chelsea has the best striker in world that too in great form. An amateurish attempt to make out of the screen effect. For you torres.

And my last night’s artwork went kind of viral on fb. Many people liked it.

–rd

Pollard = MI

Sometimes when I think how good my book can be, I can hardly breathe.  Truman Capote

Hey,

This day got lots of changes in my schedule. I am getting used to wake up at the IST. Well tomorrow I need to wake up at may be Singapore ST? I spent an hour reading newspapers. Just like the old days, when I used to get loads of time in the morning to read stuff.

I fixed my to-do list in the morning. I watched some the wlan security video it got me thinking about the possible modes of attack I can try out. At 3 I stopped this and after having lunch, I went to gym. Yeah, I worked out in the afternoon. There’s no one at afternoon. Just a couple of youngsters and few fat ladies. Bnn returned to gym after a long brake. I am not into her but she is the only kind of hot gym trainer around. One hour of workout and some shopping then I returned home.

I spent hours browsing facebook. This addiction is bad. I feel like reading the entire news feed without missing anything. One good news is pw got admission in iimc. That’s fucking great. He is a complete package technical as well as managerial stuff. Now after two years he will be working for a fat pay check. Awesome. Btw, my studies started at 10 pm. So lazy. I got a fantastic book of data structures. Understanding concepts from it is easy as pie. I just don’t feel the certainty of tomorrow’s placement. It may be the first time when I will be competing against some of the toppers of the class. I am too much relaxed. I don’t know why but I feel like let this opportunity go other will come. I don’t know how it is like to work in a company owned by the government. That too IT sector. What will happen tomorrow? Will I get the job? What does my horoscope says? So many questions, no definite answers.

One thing that put my studies off track was the IPL match between MI and RR. News-papers are giving too much attention to how great ganguly and dravids captaincy is. It’s just start you faggots. It’s not the end. MI won. Malinga turned the game around in an over. Then it was pollard’s turn to finish off the rest. Pollard is MI and MI is pollard! He bats, bowls, fields, and he does all with dedication. That’s pollard for you. Glad he hits the form. On the other side, chelsea’s fixtures have been set. Spurs, barca, arsenal, barca. Wtf. How would it go? WWWW? That will be the real test. Taking care of bookings, injuries and wins.

I have decided to write mostly good stuff. I mean when I look back to my previous posts, I find jealousy, frustration, anger. I want happiness, opportunities, health, love, friends, and more awesome stuff. Let’s see if writing awesome gets me awesome or not.

–rd

 

sadness and happiness

I try to leave out the parts that people skip. Elmore Leonard

Hey,

Yet another productive day. Not fully productive but still I went to college and learned something (from my video tutorials). And the most awesome thing is that two of my friends got job at ctstch. They waited for a long time and got well deserved success. Hearty congrats to my pals ka and ss.

I got up today early. I planned to go to college by 11 am. but gddu wanted laptop for geometry video tuts. So I decided to go late. Wise decision because nothing really happened. I went to doctor for my sore throat then went to college. That cough syrup spilled inside my bag. Oh my lovely bag, that damn plastic bottle. Curse you! While the laptop was with gddu, he watched the picnic photos and may be showed it to mom. Nothing kind of highly private stuff but still that’s not fair. I have decided that I won’t ever let him touch my laptop again. Screw you, A’hole.

I made the ppt when I reached college. It was 10^th from the last day in college. The countdown has begun and there are just 9 more days to go. For further work and studies, I went to dorm room. Shared the photos with buddies. It was fun when funny comments were passed while watching the entire album together. Then I watched the mitm video. Damn. That was something difficult to understand. I wish I could do that stuff practically. Yes, yes it is possible. But the risk is too high. Who cares? I am in. watch out neighbourhood, here I come. Even ssl can’t protect you. Heeheehaha. Chicken tikka roll that’s what I ate at the food joint. I missed my lunch. Hell.

Reached home at 6.30. Ate something and left for gym. Actually in the morning, since I was feeling a bit low on energy, I had decided to miss the gym. But I was back to normal once I got in college. Happiness changes energy levels. I worked out till 9.45. When I returned home, mom and dad started their lecture of good behaviour. Damn they started comparing me with vh, saying he studies for whole day why couldn’t you? That was right, but I was feeling sick that’s why I preferred rest. How could a little rest cause havoc? And regarding my nutrition, dad’s decision to take vitamin and protein supplements without proper consulting will turn on him like a boomerang. What the fuck and he even forces me to eat those vitamin tablets? Protein shake I need it. But won’t it be good to take vitamin intake through natural diet? But who listens? Dad wants to hear what he wants to hear. Mom speaks useless stuff. Does she ever analyse what she speaks? Bullshit. Sometimes all the depressing thoughts make me think about suicide. But I am not that kind of loser. I am built to fight till the last. Just those thoughts. When parents and me sit in same room, nothing constructive happens. All destructive. Destruction of my self-esteem. That’s why I sometimes think of leaving the home and start by my own. Huh, they are always right. Regardless of the truth and conditions. And I am always fucking wrong. Such is life.

One happy moment at the end of the day. rohit sharma pulled out an impossible looking victory for MI. Man, six on the last ball and 18 runs in last over. That’s awesome. You rock, man. I am feeling sleepy now. Good night.

–rd

 

 

debate and IPL

I’m writing a book. I’ve got the page numbers done. Steven Wright

Hey,

I don’t know why I went to college today. There were just 2-3 groups doing project work. I was confused whether to go or not but being last day of week, I decided to go. I woke up at 8. But I was too tired and the shoulder workout was doing its work on my body. After 2 hours of extra sleep, I was feeling bit ok. So I started my routine work. 2hours again but I could have minimized that.

When I reached the college, I found pr at the railway station. He was leaving after coming to college at 10 and finding no one there. With no laptop with him, obviously he was bored. When I reached the classroom, I was shocked to see my entire project group there. Cleared some misunderstandings, assigned work, had a noteworthy debate. Me vs. others. I bet my point was right. They were calling it ips but it was in fact ids. Vt is difficult to convince. He is those mai hoshiyar kind of faggots. Frog ass. I doubt if ka is going to do any further work. So I decided to take control in my hand. Gave black book work to ss and vt. But I am sure they won’t complete it. Hope for best and expect the worst is all I can do. For me it was waste of time. And our project guide was fucking begging to us to do some more project work. Wtf. It’s not our fault that he doesn’t understand the project work and thinks it as less. Education quality?!

Gym time also clashed with IPL time. Yes, IPL begins today. I cheer for the mighty Mumbai Indians. Sachin plays for them and they represent my city. MI won! Levi is the new found star man. To my surprise, the stadium was almost half empty. IPL has lost its shine. Also, barca beat Milan now hopefully they meet Chelsea in semis. Torres is the key man. I bet if Torres plays, Chelsea can destroy barca. But first, need to kick benfica’s ass tonight. Lots of work to do. Also thinking of picnic this weekend. Let’s see.

–rd