Words, once they are printed, have a life of their own. Carol Burnett
Hey,
Yeah, I made myself change. I woke up early. Quiet early, at 6. Dad was surprised to see me up so early. I had made my mind to look more responsible. I never gave a fuck to what others think about me and will never ever do that. I will sleep when I want. I will do things I love, but at same time, I’ll be on time, I’ll be responsible. It’s my life and I want fucking all of ‘em.
For the first time, I took bike to gym, I was scared at first. A couple of mistakes done, overall enjoyable ride. Chest workout in gym. I feel that I shouldn’t take too long breaks. It’s not good that I am taking best quality protein and no workout. Getting to office was kind of difficult today. It was earlier than usual. There was a dramatic point while reading that ebook. It was another way to define personal success. Beginning with an end in mind. Damn, that funeral story literally shattered me. Imaging your loved one’s funeral and then you come to know that person is nothing but you! a deep shocker. How would you want others to think about you? And surprisingly, there were no thoughts related to money, success or anything like that. Just pure value based things. That’s what success is for me then. Amazing. Thank you!
I was in no mood to work. There was no work as such. Cs was super busy all the day. Our positions were interchanged. There used to be days when I was busy with projects and she used to read books. It’s happening with me now. I feel kind of irritated but this is golden opportunity for me. I wanted to eat cs’s tiffin. And today was the day. Girls were going out for lunch. I had no food with me, thanks to her; I saved the money and her food as well. Veggies were really great but I wonder how she manages to eat such fade food all the time. I am so grateful to her.
When I asked her that is she so busy that she doesn’t even have time to look at me, and then she sat for a quick chat. Lol. Evening, a meeting regarding next seminar at college. awesome! I’ll be going to my college after so long time. I know what to bring! My freaking amazing laptop, the wifi adapter and other amazing stuff to accompany me after so many months. I am so happy and grateful to get this opportunity! Cs wanted our involvement too in it. lol.
She made me wait till 9:25pm. Latest ever time recorded by us. By that time, i was playing angry birds on a projector screen. lol. That was a freaky amazing experience! Train journey, quick journey. Never got a spare moment to talk to her. I kind of felt alone. Alone, the way I am usually. This feeling wasn’t there since a long time. This afternoon, I don’t know why but the feeling suddenly grew stronger. Thank goodness cs was there at right moment for a chat. Sometimes I wonder if she really means it from the bottom of her heart or it’s just for show. Really, I never ever trusted anyone fully in my life. I want to trust her but some things just hold me back; I can’t fully trust even her even though I want to.
When at home, I was sleepy, but after getting my hands on fifa 13, I never wanted to sleep. It’s almost 4 am now and I still feel like mastering fifa 13. Actually, they fucked up the controls like last time. damn, it was freaking difficult to get acquainted with those controls and then again beat a team. Cs came online at 2. I wanted to talk to her but something held me back. I thought it wasn’t a good time. Anyways, even she didn’t start the chat. I don’t want any paradigm shit here. Let the facts be facts. Lol.
Off to bed now. I do what I love and I love what I do!
–rd