missing friends

I try to leave out the parts that people skip. Elmore Leonard

Hey,

What a disappointing Saturday. Not even this not even that. Got up late and went to gym. I wanted an outing today. But fuck that, no one from college seems to be free these days. How will they go out when they get responsibilities after some months? Anyways, even I wanted some rest.

Biceps workout in gym. And that new protein’s taste just sucks. I was about to throw up the first time I took a sip. Why the best one has to taste bad? Got home and then ss called me. He is the only one who keeps in touch. Rest may be busy with their own new found life. sd called me too. He wanted some help in appearing for an exam. His application was rejected. Was disturbed. I went on to check youtube and gmail. Cs had sent an email. The usual send this to people you care email. Glad to know I come in that list. I was just wandering through the memory lane of college days. Checked profiles of ak, ka and pr. Checked all the photos of them. Most of them clicked by me. photoshopped by me. I just miss those golden days. When they were always there for me. No drama, no shit, just pure understanding. Wtf, I would pay anything to get those days back. I would love to click our photos on t’fest, cult fest and the regular college days once again. I just miss it badly.

I thought el classico was today, so I took a nap at 6. Got up at 8 and watched Chelsea playing at home. 16 goals in 4 matches. Freaking awesome. torres, mata, hazard and Oskar these guys are just brilliant. I was shocked to read that essien was loaned to madrid. Real shock for me. I wonder what mikel is doing at bridge. He should have been the new lampard by now. Anyways, got some new games for my iphone. Car racing. I just love those graphics but I hate playing games on smartphone. Games are played on consoles and pcs. Choosing from 10 different buttons, hand and eye co-ordination at its best. No such fun on smartphone games.

Cs was online late night. We hardly discussed our day and she went to bed. Looks like I got her addicted to chatting. Now she keeps on chatting with other guys and keeps me waiting for reply. Argh! I was up till almost the morning. Till 4.30am. Got a chance to talk with nk. Glad to see him settling down at Washington. He was worried about my insomnia. Lol. It looked like he felt alone and wanted someone to talk. May be for the first time, he wasn’t bored to talk to me. lol. Awesome work he is doing and he really deserves what he got. Glad to have friend like him.

–rd

genius at work

I have made this letter longer, because I have not had the time to make it shorter. Blaise Pascal

Hey,

Damn serious day. In fact I felt like some exam sitting on my head. Same feeling. I was really serious today. And so was cs. I got to office little late.  The first question she asked was did you sleep? Lol, how did she know about it? I mean yes I was up till 2 am but still. She understands me very well. Thanks partner! But the uncool part was, I wasn’t actually studying. I was on facebook and then wrote the blog. I was really disappointed yesterday. But today I feel kind of satisfied at the end of the day.

I looked more serious than cs. She may be scared of my seriousness today. Today’s session was totally group study. I enjoyed discussing things with her. And I guess even she likes it. That’s what we did in college. Almost all the morning session went in understanding the core concept. I really like discussing with her. She is like complementary to me. When I get struck, her brain works. We share great chemistry. It was lunch time. Time just flew away. Then after lunch, she went for a boring meeting. Returned directly at 6.30. I was damn bored. I made notes and read some eBook. Cs told me not to start without her. lol. I guess she fears my speed. And I was slowest in college. Hmm, who would tell this to her? Btw, I browsed facebook, twitter and all that good shit. Then the damn news broke. Railway motormen went on flash strike. Wtf! 450 whoresons want to stop Mumbai, eh? What logic those bastards use? Don’t they understand the inconvenience caused to millions of people. Mumbai people should unite and beat up all those mofos who try to hold the city to ransom. I felt sorry for all those people stuck in between the stations without any reason.

I was so bored that I kept the ebook aside and was reading only the twitter feed. I was a bit tensed. Dad asked me to leave office early. But I was waiting for cs. Even she asked me to wait. I used to train religiously but her company made me bunk gym for third consecutive day. She is damn sweet, can she read my mind? She reserved some food for me without even asking for it. I was damn hungry. Thanks for that girl. But sometimes I feel sad that am I keeping her hungry? Her plan was to come to office even during weekends. I tried to change it but no; if madam wants a thing then she wants it anyhow. Even I would have been made to come to office by her. I couldn’t deny that. How could I let her come alone? Thank goodness the office remains closed on weekdays. Anyways, that would have created a wrong impression on others that we want some time as lovers so we are pretending to work even during holiday. Grr, correct point. Cs looked cool about that. I pretended as if I didn’t get a word. Lol. Strategy meet took more than half an hour instead of 5 minutes. This was the latest I got out of office. 8.45pm. I remember angry faces looking at me when I used to leave office at 6. Now people came and were asking me to go home. Such is life. Enjoyed discussion with cs at bus stop. I was never ever so open to anyone ever in my life. Apart from cousin vb. But for a friend, she knows too much about me or I tell her every thought that comes to my mind. Even she does the same. I can’t stop thanking for you being in my life babe. Love you!

–rd

epic end!

Every writer I know has trouble writing. Joseph Heller

So damn lucky! I am on a luck riot. I was late 20 minute today but again the exam sections mismanagement saved my ass. I just wanted to read fucking everything. And that I did finally. But hell, 20 minutes late. I missed my breakfast and lunch today. I was very hungry while writing the paper. But I wanted to top. Fuck yeah, this was my subject. But, even though, paper was easy, I could write 80 marks.

What scared me is that I came to know that for 1^st paper, the lowest was 34 out of 100. And for 3^rd paper my performance wasn’t that good. Wtf, why just me? Why it’s just me who ends up at the end? Why me? There are others who do not study just like me, but still get marks. Then why me? (That does not mean I expect myself to get those 34 marks). But one thing is sure that this time, I hope I will not be the last finisher. After writing 80 marks you can’t expect to finish well then there must be some serious problem with my attitude. Epic paper just was how I expected it to be.

At the end, waiting at the basketball court watching the sun set was awesomely soothing. It was last one, last one of my life at college. This evening was darker those other days, like harry potter movie. Dark and cloudy sky, windy weather and company of friends. Cheese noodle Frankie and a five star fruit and nut. This was what I celebrated with.

When is your joining date? This was the master question today. The project presentation being on Monday, there are hardly two working days left to wrap up the things. No time to enjoy just yet. Now we all part our ways. Bangalore, Hyderabad, Pune and some staying back in Mumbai. Some going to USA. Here our batch disbands. Friends may not be the same when we meet again. It happened with school friends and same is happening with college friends. I want to cease it to some extent. Lady luck, be with me just like you do every day.

–rd

mr. unpredictable

Every writer I know has trouble writing. Joseph Heller

Hey,

What the fuck of an exam! No matter how much you study, all end up on same level. Out of 100 marks 90 coming from out of textbook or out of the scope of syllabus. But we are the top engineers! We know how to tackle any fucking situation. Some of us, including me, wrote full 100 marks. Now after this I feel like I might top the exam. Wtf. It’s just what I feel, no relation to reality. Lol. But seriously, this professor has taught me how to face most difficult situations in life. He taught me to fight world war with just a water gun in my hand. His every paper I attempted so far was totally unpredictable. Really, really unpredictable. Some people are built like that. Some were crying, some were cursing their luck and some like me were smiling just because they attempted full paper. Thank you sir, for teaching me to be composed even during tough periods of life. you come out successful, almost always just do what you are expected to do and the rest will automatically happen.

Now, all the focus on my main enemy. This course got me almost buried all the way during the mid sems. Now, totally unprepared, here I start the fight. I don’t know what will happen, but I know what I want to make it happen. Damn, I should eat something before the paper. Skipping lunch isn’t cool. Under nutrition causes headaches to me. Also got the railway concession form signed. Lucky that I got it within 15 minutes. I thought I could take for 3 months, but later I realized this would be cheating. I may cheat in video games almost every time, but not in real life.

Cardio in gym. Sweets after coming home and rest that I deserve for today, good night.

–rd

 

so so

I do not like to write – I like to have written. Gloria Steinem

Hey,

I want to sleep for five more minutes please. And my alarm too couldn’t scream loud enough to wake me up. I though 5 hours of sleep is enough for me. But I tell you now, 7 to 8 hours of sleep is must for me. That’s right. I got up at 9.30. I remember dad asking me what’s the time of exam. I uttered something like 3.10. lol. I couldn’t believe how things like newspaper and photoshop magazine attract me more than study notes. Gosh I just rushed through my notes this morning. Some reading done in train fetched me 20 something marks. It wasn’t enough though.

I reached there on exact time. 1.30 pm. Wtf, and my watch too stopped working at the same time. I left using watch because I get late always. But it was exam today and I needed it. But you betrayed me bitch. Paper was good in bad. I wrote 80 marks and I expect 60. May be 50 plus. Oh, I won’t go below that. Overall grade may be 6. Not a great start but that’s what happens when you do one day before the exam studies. When exam was over, the news of me getting job was spread. My best pals were angry why I didn’t tell them about it. But I wanted to give them surprise. Damn, they came to know already. I was too hungry. We ate franky at the food joint.

As soon as I reached home, I came to know about the medical test I had to give. Wtf, what about my gym? Then I decided I’ll still go even if I reach there at 9. And I did. This session was kind of back to basics. I will try to work on my form without giving focus to heavy weight training. Then as soon as I get my form right, I’ll increase the loads. I went to take steam bath, but it was fucking so hot. I couldn’t even stand inside for 5 seconds. That’s it. 5 seconds of steam bath. Finally I broke the news of new job to dad. He wasn’t too excited. He wants me to do another degree. I want to earn. Conflict! Let’s see what happens.

–rd