Diwali!

The best way to become acquainted with a subject is to write a book about it. Benjamin Disraeli

Hey,

So, it’s Diwali! The festival of lights! The day when lord rama returned to his land after defeating the evil. Farmers are happy as they complete their field work and almost get all the hard earned money in their hand. As of people in Mumbai, it’s all about eating sweets, meeting friends and relatives and the firecrackers.

All through the years, I have a feeling that the festival has already lost its charm. I don’t feel like I used to feel in school days, the holiness the purity is lost somewhere. Something is missing. The entire meaning of India’s biggest festival is changing. The shittiest thing that I hate about Diwali is the firecrackers. So much pollution! Fucking what have you made of my city? It looks lost in smoke. I can’t even breathe while on streets. Ok, then what about those noise levels? What about animals and children who can’t speak to express their feelings. Suddenly, these birds, and dogs disappear somewhere. I was searching for a dog to feed him some cookies, and damn, even he was hiding somewhere because of this noise and pollution. I feel so angry about this whole change in conditions. The baddest time for asthma patients. They should leave city or sit in an isolated room. That’s good for them.

Now all ain’t that bad about this festival. This festival automatically brings joy in my heart. Like your birthday, you feel the king of the world. But this time, not just you, everyone is the king. Lol. I decided to live it in my usual ways. Playing video games for all the three days of festival. Hell yeah! Last time I was in kirkwall fighting darkspawns in dragon age 2! Fuck, during last time in November so many games released at the same time. Where the fuck are game producers now? Just black ops 2 coming this time. and why the fuck assassin’s creed 3 isn’t coming for pc? I don’t know why but it looks like the fifa franchise has lost its value. It’s not the same after fifa 11. They fucked up too many things, specially the controls. Ah, I was thinking about cs and here came her text wishing me for the season. I didn’t reply. I don’t know why. Will do it later.

Shopping for me! Finally! I have learned to buy clothes that I love and not my dad thinks will suit on me.  Huh, I waited too long for it. Thanks to the shopkeeper who supported me. Ah, happy to have clothes by my own choice. Woot!

Now, the plan is, we will meet, we will have fun, we will celebrate and we will have fun. I hope tomorrow’s outing gets as epic as band stand one. Waiting for it!

–rd

shopping bags

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Hey,

Sunday, and Diwali. What a combination. It’s a festival and I am in no mood for it. What can you call it? there is no rm this time. That means I am all alone. No one to play fifa or pes with me. Shit, this makes me sad. I have all the new games, but I don’t know why, I don’t feel like playing them. May be I should just begin and then it will get over me just like the old time. Sometimes, I wish that I should get back in college to do some post-graduation studies. At least being in college is less stressful.

And when I think about last night’s conversation with cs compared to Friday, I don’t know why I feel like she is keeping me as an option. When there is no one to talk, get to me. It wasn’t like this before. It was never like this and it hurts me a lot. She has changed. And I find it difficult to change. I don’t feel the same way while talking to her. I fell like she is more mature than me; I am just another fool who doesn’t know what and how to behave. I used to think the other way when I met her for first time. It hurts when your best friend changes suddenly into something new.  Without thinking about the environment around them, without thinking about the people around them who care about them. We were like 2 years old children and suddenly, she developed into 10 year old while I am just 3 years old. It’s that difference. She took 8 steps while I took just 1. I hate it when someone leaves you this way. No, I am not jealous about this but I just feel alone sometimes. There are people around me. Trying to interact with me, trying to enjoy time with me and I am not into them. I feel sad for them as well. Sometimes I just want her and sometimes, I just want to break free from all this and go back to my original self. But first thing keeps me bound to it. It’s fucking difficult to leave someone or something you love from bottom of your heart. Period.

Oh, my day? There was gym, there was lunch, there was rest, there was facebook, there was gmail, and there was little fun. And then I went for shopping for clothes. The thing I hate most in whole world. It’s so boring. I can’t fucking choose which one to wear. The one dad likes are too mainstream. The ones I like don’t go with my personality. The rest are just boring. And I end up picking up something shitty. Ah, need to go tomorrow again. Bought only 2 bags today. lol. I don’t think even tomorrow’s plan will work. Something fishy.

And here I am deciding what next to do. I better go to sleep.

–rd