Proofread carefully to see if you any words out. Author Unknown

Hey,

Sunday, and Diwali. What a combination. It’s a festival and I am in no mood for it. What can you call it? there is no rm this time. That means I am all alone. No one to play fifa or pes with me. Shit, this makes me sad. I have all the new games, but I don’t know why, I don’t feel like playing them. May be I should just begin and then it will get over me just like the old time. Sometimes, I wish that I should get back in college to do some post-graduation studies. At least being in college is less stressful.

And when I think about last night’s conversation with cs compared to Friday, I don’t know why I feel like she is keeping me as an option. When there is no one to talk, get to me. It wasn’t like this before. It was never like this and it hurts me a lot. She has changed. And I find it difficult to change. I don’t feel the same way while talking to her. I fell like she is more mature than me; I am just another fool who doesn’t know what and how to behave. I used to think the other way when I met her for first time. It hurts when your best friend changes suddenly into something new.  Without thinking about the environment around them, without thinking about the people around them who care about them. We were like 2 years old children and suddenly, she developed into 10 year old while I am just 3 years old. It’s that difference. She took 8 steps while I took just 1. I hate it when someone leaves you this way. No, I am not jealous about this but I just feel alone sometimes. There are people around me. Trying to interact with me, trying to enjoy time with me and I am not into them. I feel sad for them as well. Sometimes I just want her and sometimes, I just want to break free from all this and go back to my original self. But first thing keeps me bound to it. It’s fucking difficult to leave someone or something you love from bottom of your heart. Period.

Oh, my day? There was gym, there was lunch, there was rest, there was facebook, there was gmail, and there was little fun. And then I went for shopping for clothes. The thing I hate most in whole world. It’s so boring. I can’t fucking choose which one to wear. The one dad likes are too mainstream. The ones I like don’t go with my personality. The rest are just boring. And I end up picking up something shitty. Ah, need to go tomorrow again. Bought only 2 bags today. lol. I don’t think even tomorrow’s plan will work. Something fishy.

And here I am deciding what next to do. I better go to sleep.

–rd